The wandering dork, embarks on her biggest journey to date... the road to mommyhood. :-) While some are rolling their eyeballs, and raising their eyebrows, I could not deny that this is an untimely gift. I firmly believe that God has his own timing, and that I should never question why he blessed with a tiny angel, I call my child. He/She may be unplanned, but he/she is never unwanted.
ACCEPTANCE
My journey of acceptance, wasn't taken with a grain of salt. I had a long list of go to's for 2013, New york, Bali, my first mountain climbing yada yada. The wandering dork in me continues to lurk and crawl out. But the option of abortion was totally out of the question. Never has it crossed my mind despite my personal ambitions and of my partner. I firmly believed it was such a great addition to our family after losing my Dad especially with my brother moving out in a few months. What God has taken away, he replaced immediately. While I didn't believe in the old fashion "kasabihan", now I know for sure that God has a way of healing you. Thus I welcome you, my baby.
My partner, and I didn't normalize after a few days. We were still a bit shock, after losing a bit chunk of ourselves, and now an extension of us. A baby. You are going to be a parent soon. Those declarations didn't seem to help, but the excitement of choosing baby names, and how you are going to raise it, and what kind of parent you are going to be, were one of the thousand questions we couldn't quite sleep on. Up until today, I wake up in the morning see my baby bump, and I realize, "Hey I am going to be a mommy na nga pala".
THE BIG ANNOUNCEMENT
I've seen a lot of people of my age (often younger) share the same boat with me. The big announcement isn't always an easy one, as much as hearing criticisms and being a victim of cruel gossip. None of these made me feel like lesser person though. I made the decision of making the big announcement than let my swelling tummy do the talking. I say, I am going to be a mother soon, and this is the biggest blessing yet. :-)
